Lovely coincidences

Yesterday I stopped off at blockbuster on my way home from work .. I was browsing the new releases and didn't see anything that really grabbed my attention .. So I was wandering through the store then I remembered so many ppl have said 'the notebook' is a really good movie .. So I went looking for it, but didn't see it anywhere, and ended up bringing home 'the perfect catch' which was ok, a sweet romance .. And 'the skeleton key' which I am watching as we speak .. Anyway I woke up this morning and went downstairs to watch the cable TV while I was having brekki and as I was flicking through the 700 something channels I came to the movie channel group, and there on one of the channel, 'the notebook' had just started .. So I did get to watch it and it was a very sweet movie ^_^

after the movie had finished I did my work out .. I listen to my eyepod (yeh I know its an ipod .. But its an eyepod for me and thi LOL) while I get sweaty hehe, and I was thinking there was this particular song I wanted to hear, but cos my eyepod is on shuffle I didn't know what number song it was .. So I was thinking about that song while listening to another song while working out and then the song I wanted to hear came on next ^_^

today I went to Eastland with my mum, just did some lazy walking around the center, ended up buying a milkshake shaker thing to do my protein shakes in the mornings, some stick on hooks and a new top .. Had red rooster burger for lunch and then before I went to get some prawns from coles, so I can have prawn cocktail for dinner with less sauce than last time hehe .. I also bought a bottle of juice, it was apple, pineapple, lime and mint flavour .. Sounds really weird I know, but it actually tasted quite good .. As I went to the checkout I spotted cadbury creme eggs so I bought one of those too hehe yay for Easter ^_^

neway back to the DVD *waves*

i love smiles

i really do .. but not just any old smile you get from any random person .. the kind of smile you get from someone you know well, a close friend .. the kind that crinkles their eyes and shows their teeth and they smile at you with their whole face .. when they look you right in the eye and grin and you know that smile is just ment to be shared between the 2 of you no matter who else is around .. that kind of smile shows love, shares a private joke, separates you 2 from the world just for a moment

i love those smiles =]

Someone to Call my Lover

maybe we'll meet at a bar, he'll drive a funky car

maybe we'll meet at a club, and fall so deeply in love

he'll tell me i'm the one, and we'll have so much fun

i'll be the girl of his dreams .. maybe

alright maybe gonna find him today

i gotta get someone to call my lover yea baby come on

alrite baby come and pass my way

i gotta get someone to call my lover yea baby come on

my, my, looking for a guy, guy

i don't want him to shy, but he's gotta have the qualities

that i like in a man, strong, smart, affectionate

he's gotta be all for me, and i'll be too

you'll see happily

- janet jackson

Another quiz .. cos im bored

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Personal Astrology Reading

Your Personal Profile

Clare February 4, 1982 12:05 AMMelbourne, Australia

The interpretation of your astrology chart begins on the following page. You will find that the interpretation of your chart is written in simple language, uncluttered by astrological jargon. If a statement appears to contradict another statement, then you exhibit these opposite qualities at different times in your life. For example, a statement that you are highly sociable and gregarious and a statement that you prefer solitude seemingly contradict each other; this means that you vacillate, and need both sociability and solitude at different times. The astrological factor that the interpretation is based on is also given. The astrological factor is given for the benefit of astrologers and students of astrology. If you are not a student of astrology, then obviously the factor will not be meaningful to you, and you can ignore it. If you find this interpretation of your birth chart interesting and informative, you might want to discuss your birth chart with a professional astrologer to learn more about the astrological influences on your life.

Your birth chart interpretation is based on the positions of the planets at the time of your birth. For the benefit of students of astrology, these positions, along with other technical information, are listed below:
Sun 14 Aqu 23, Pluto 26 Lib 55, Moon 9 Gem 59, N. Node 22 Can 19, Mercury 9 Aqu 03, Asc. 8 Sco 23, Venus 24 Cap 28, MC 22 Can 47, Mars 17 Lib 29, 2nd cusp 8 Sag 20, Jupiter 9 Sco 40, 3rd cusp 1 Cap 04, Saturn 22 Lib 14, 5th cusp 18 Aqu 02, Uranus 4 Sag 06, 6th cusp 22 Pis 26, Neptune 26 Sag 15,

Tropical Placidus Daylight Savings Time observed

Aspects and orbs:Conjunction : 7 Deg 00 Min, Trine : 5 Deg 00 Min, Opposition : 5 Deg 00 Min, Sextile : 4 Deg 00 Min, Square : 5 Deg 00 Min, Quincunx : 3 Deg 00 Min, Conjunct Asc : 3 Deg 00 Min, Above, 5 Deg 00 Min Below

Section 1: How You Approach Life and How You Appear To Others

The following is a description of your basic stance towards life, the way others see you, the way you come across, the face you show to the world. In Chapter 3 you will read about the "The Inner You: Your Real Motivation", which describes the kind of person you are at heart and where your true priorities lie. Read this chapter and the next one and compare them - there may be significant differences between them, in which case "the inner you" may not shine through and others are in for some surprises when they get to know you at a more than superficial level. This chapter describes the costume you wear, your role in life, while Chapter 3 talks about the real person inside the costume.

Scorpio Rising: You are very strong-willed and proud, but intensely private and not easy to know well. Behind your quiet exterior lies a great deal of emotional depth, sensitivity, complexity, and also fierce determination. When you want something you go after it rather quietly but insistently and wholeheartedly - and you usually get it.

You are not a person who lives lightly or superficially. You want to live passionately and intensely and are not averse to challenge, danger, or to facing the darker side of life - human pain and struggle. You function well in crisis situations and often seek them out, for you enjoy the feeling of living at full capacity.

You are very intuitive about other people and especially about their unspoken feelings and hidden motives. You usually have strong, immediate gut reactions, either positive or negative, which prove to be correct. You approach life very instinctively and are not always fully conscious of why you feel or act as you do. You also have a very strong affinity with animals - an acute sensitivity and a nonverbal kind of rapport with them.

In relation to others, you are rather cautious, sometimes even suspicious, until you get to know and trust them - and trust doesn't come easily to you. When you commit yourself emotionally to someone, be it friend or lover, you are intensely loyal and devoted to them and you also expect the same kind of unwavering, undying loyalty in return. If you are ever betrayed by someone you care deeply for, you are capable of hating and retaliating with as much fervor as you once loved. Nothing is done halfway. In fact, you are intensely involved and often jealously attached to whatever you care about, be it person, idea, or cause. There is definitely a streak of emotional fanaticism in you.

Because of your natural reserve, others may see you as something of an enigma. You are quite self-protective and often defensive. You are also very magnetic, especially to members of the opposite sex.

Jupiter Conjunct Asc.:

You radiate a sense of confidence, well-being, and optimism, which inspires trust and good feelings in others. You like yourself and it shows. You expect success in life and you generally achieve it. However, you also tend to exaggerate or to overestimate yourself, and you can be sloppy and careless when it comes to details.

Mercury Square Asc.:

You may come across a bit scattered, nervous, or restless, as if you can't sit still. You seem alert and quick, but sometimes a bit on edge. You tend to stay perpetually busy, and would find handiwork of some kind to be soothing.

Moon Quincunx Asc.:

In significant ways, your emotional nature and personal needs are at odds with the way you present yourself. (Compare this chapter with the description of your moon sign in Chapter 4.) As a result of this inconsistency, you may be uncomfortable showing your instinctive responses and true feelings. You may put them aside, maybe even be ashamed of them. When you are in an emotionally charged situation, those who don't know you well may be quite surprised at your reactions or behavior. The real challenge, though, is to completely accept yourself, so that you don't act as if your emotional needs and impulses didn't count for very much.

Section 2: The Inner You: Your Real Motivation

Ascendant in Scorpio and Sun in Aquarius:
Although you are intensely emotional and fervent in your loves and hates (as described in the previous chapter), very often you are cool, detached, objective, and dispassionate. Your emotions are difficult to arouse, but once aroused you are intensely emotional, feeling love, hate, or jealousy with your heart and soul. Also, your innate idealism (discussed below) may prevent you from acting as temperamentally as you might feel. You have strong views and can be zealous in defending your ideas.

Sun in Aquarius:
You are a freedom-loving, strong-willed, and independent-minded individual, and you insist upon living your own life as you see fit, even if that means ignoring convention and tradition. In personal relationships you cannot be owned or possessed, and while you are willing to share yourself with another, you do not always adjust easily to the emotional give and take of a close relationship. Though intellectually open, you can be enormously stubborn, opinionated, and inflexible on a one-to-one level. You have strong convictions and feelings about fairness and equality, and you try to live by your ideals, but your ideals about how people SHOULD treat one another don't always take into account human weaknesses, differences, and needs. You probably dislike sentimentality and traditional gender roles and "games".

You are fair, intelligent, objective, rational and often let your head rule rather than your heart. You seem rather self-sufficient and detached emotionally because you are capable of putting aside your personal feelings and viewing things dispassionately. But once you make up your mind on an issue, you are difficult to sway and can be rather dogmatic.

You think in broad terms and are concerned with the world beyond your own personal sphere - your town, nation, or even planet. You are likely to become involved in community affairs, social organizations, and groups of all kinds, or to have a keen interest in such. You enjoy being part of a group endeavor and often find yourself organizing, managing, or supervising group activities.

Forward-looking and progressive, you harbor great hopes for the future. You stay current and up to date, and respond to contemporary cultural trends, both in terms of personal style and in terms of ideas. When young you were very influenced by your peers and by group pressures and by all the "latest crazes". You have an experimental mind and are attracted by the novel.

Your strong points include your concern for human welfare and social betterment, your sense of fairness and democratic spirit, and your vision. Your faults are your stubbornness and inflexibility, and a tendency to be very obtuse and insensitive when it comes to personal feelings and human needs.

Sun in 4th house:
You are a private person and inclined to withdraw in very public and impersonal social settings. You prefer to work at home or in a very personal small business.

You invest a lot of your creative energy into your home, your family, and your inner life.

Sun Conjunct Mercury:
You tend to see things from your perspective only and to be rather subjective. You also enjoy talking and expressing your views but you don't always listen as well. You have a clear mind, a love of learning and new experiences, and need constant mental stimulation and activity.

Sun Trine Moon:
You feel that you have the support of your family or others in your environment for your creative efforts and personal goals, which enables you to act with confidence. You are able to satisfy both your need to be an individual, and your need for caring relationships and a sense of belonging. You are in harmony with yourself and are therefore an effective individual.

Sun Trine Mars:
You are positive, vital, energetic, active, a go-getter. You enjoy competition, and your initiative and self-confidence make you a winner.

Sun Square Jupiter:
You have big aspirations and the desire to succeed in life in a grand way. You tend to exaggerate, to promise more than is possible, and to misjudge through being overly optimistic. However, you never lose your hopes for the future. Restlessness and discontent with responsibilities and limitations in life can be troublesome for you.

Sun Opposition Moon/Mars
You are strong-willed, forceful and independent. You know what you want, but sometimes may act too impulsively causing quarrels or disagreement with others. You tend to judge yourself and others quite severely, but you are very sincere, honest and trustworthy.

Section 3: Your Elemental Nature

Your fundamental needs, values, and orientation towards life are symbolized by the four astrological elements. Each person has their own unique balance of these four basic energies: fire (warmth, inspiration, enthusiasm), earth (practicality, realism, material interests), air (social and intellectual qualities), and water (emotional needs and feelings).

Your "elemental make-up" is described below. Remember that most people are "unbalanced" or lopsided, and if you are lacking or deficient in a certain element (or elements), it simply means that you need to consciously develop that aspect of yourself to learn to appreciate and/or to work harder in that dimension of life.

Sometimes we overvalue the element that we are least endowed with, sensing it as a lack within ourselves, but more often we neglect or ignore it. The qualities described below will be reiterated and explained in more detail in the following chapters.

Air is Strong, Fire is Weak (F,E,A,W Scores = 2,4,33,10):
At times you function like the bureaucratic committee who will discuss and study a situation endlessly before doing anything about it: you lack the drive, passion, or confidence to put your best ideas into action. You may be reluctant to act forthrightly without the reinforcement and agreement of others, seeking feedback and advice when you actually need to simply act on what you already know.

You need to develop a stronger sense of yourself, to build self-confidence, and to learn to be more self-motivated. Finding a source of inspiration for your life, something that warms you from within and gives life a sense of meaning, is also important for you.

Air is Strong and Ascendant is in Water sign:
As you will read in the next chapter, you actually come across to others in an intuitive, empathic way, but (as indicated here) you are quite capable of being cool and impartial - more so than you might seem.

Section 4: Mental Interests and Abilities

Mercury in Aquarius:
You are a progressive thinker, open and receptive to new technologies and breakthroughs in science, and the latest discoveries in any field. You have high expectations and a deep belief that mankind's problems can be solved through the use of our creative intelligence and inventive mind. You have no patience for those whose conservative, unimaginative outlook limits their capacity to find solutions and envision a better future. You also like to keep abreast of current developments in world affairs, for you instinctively know that what happens in one part of the world affects everyone. You have a strong humanitarian impulse. Practically speaking, you have an aptitude for organization and enjoy being involved in cooperative endeavors or businesses that are contemporary and innovative.

Mercury in 4th house:
You have an introspective turn of mind and may enjoy keeping a journal or a record of your dreams and personal experiences, or learning about psychology, history, and the inner workings and emotional foundations of your own life. You are studious and something of a bookworm.

Moon Trine Mercury:
You would be an excellent teacher or counselor for you listen sympathetically, and encourage others to express their inner thoughts and feelings. People trust and confide in you, and you are able to read between the lines and to sense what their feelings are as well as what they are saying. You work well with and understand women, and the emotional, feminine side of life. You are articulate on personal (rather than factual or technical) subjects. Keeping a diary or journal would be satisfying for you. You also have a talent for learning languages.

Mercury Square Jupiter:
You have an abundance of ideas, interests, and plans for the future, and may find it difficult to focus on any particular area. You are not a specialist for you seek to get the broad overview, to see the whole picture rather than closely examining any of its component parts. Philosophy, religion, or other areas of theoretical speculation interest you.

You also possess foresight, numerous enterprising ideas, and a gambling instinct, all of which contribute to your success in the world of business. However, your optimism and grand vision can get you in trouble too; you sometimes promise more than you can deliver, gloss over important details that come back to haunt you later, and overestimate the potential of an idea or product.

Traveling is a great love of yours, especially if there is a mind-expanding or educational aspect involved, and you may travel extensively in your work. Consulting or education would be good fields for you.

Section 5: Emotions: Moods, Feelings, Romance

Moon in Gemini:
You do not appear to be an intensely emotional or sentimental person, and you are often unaware of your own or other people's deeper feelings and emotional needs. Tears and tantrums bewilder you and make you very uncomfortable. You would rather settle differences by talking things out reasonably and rationally, but you tend to ignore or poke fun at any attempt to probe your own or others' inner depths.

You avoid heavy, demanding emotional involvement and are wary of making personal commitments.

You need plenty of mental stimulation and you feel close to people with whom you can share thoughts and mental interests. Conversation is very important to you. The strong, silent type of partner is not for you.

Moon in 8th house:
Though you want closeness very much, you often close yourself off and do not really trust others who may wish to get to know you. You are very wholehearted in your feelings and responses to people, and you want all or nothing from the people you care for.

Moon Quincunx Jupiter:
You are prone to be overly indulgent, overly permissive, overly generous, and disinclined to budget or diet or set reasonable limits for yourself or others. Subconsciously you feel entitled to bounty, and see no reason to be deprived. At your worst you can be greedy but insatiable, and addicted to "the good life". However, if other factors in your chart indicate a capacity for discipline and prudence, there is a positive side to your emotional indulgence -- you tend to be quite charitable and tolerant, freely giving and willing to embrace others despite their shortcomings.

Moon Opposition Venus/Pluto
Your emotional life seems to be overly intense and your sexuality is very strong. You are likely to make many demands of your partner and have to guard against possessiveness, jealousy and a tendency to force someone to love you.

Venus in Capricorn:
You are definitely not one to wear your heart on your sleeve. You care very much about others' opinions and crave love and appreciation as much as anyone, but one would never know it from your reserved and seemingly detached appearance. Casual, superficial relationships don't interest you at all. You are cautious and serious about love and really desire a deep, genuine, lasting love. You are old-fashioned about courtship and love, and will remain faithful to your loved one in good times and in bad.

You may be attracted to persons older than yourself, someone who is emotionally mature and reliable and who can provide the security you desire.

Venus in 4th house:
A warm, loving, and comfortable home is very important to you and you invest a lot of your energy into beautifying, decorating, and creating a lovely home. Also, you share your affection with the people in your family very generously and having close family ties is a major priority for you. Being at home makes you happy.

Venus Square Saturn:
You are serious and find it difficult to enjoy yourself in a lighthearted, open and playful way with others. You rarely do something purely for pleasure, and can be very close-fisted and parsimonious. Perhaps due to painful separations in your early life, you are very cautious about becoming close to people and sharing your feelings. Though you crave love and affection, intimacy is difficult for you. You may become romantically involved with people who do not value you or treat you well. You need to learn to love and value yourself before you will find happiness in love.

Venus Square Pluto:
You experience powerful, compelling emotional and sexual attractions, and you may feel that you have little choice or control over your desires. You have an intense need for love and may be emotionally greedy or insatiable. Your love life is passionate and often tumultuous and painful as well. Jealousy, power struggles, or possessiveness can become areas of conflict in your relationships. Positively, you can be unusually creative and bring about beneficial and healing changes in the lives of others, motivated by your deeply felt love.

Section 6: Drive and Ambition: How You Achieve Your Goals

Mars in Libra:
You seesaw between being too pushy, confrontational, and insistent on doing things your way, and being too eager to please, without a clear, definite goal of your own. You strive for a balance between acting independently and assertively - and working cooperatively and interdependently with others. You may feel frustrated at times that you cannot simply do what YOU want to, that you must always accommodate the needs and desires of others. Or you may feel hesitant to act in a positive, assertive manner if you do not have the support and approval of other people. Either way, you are not a loner. You achieve your goals by collaborating and joining forces with others, by being a team player. You are very concerned with the concept of fairness and become quite indignant and vocal if you sense someone is being taken advantage of. You avoid extremism and favor a balanced, moderate approach to living. You are unlikely to push yourself too hard or to become fanatically driven to reach your goals.

Mars in 12th house:
Asserting yourself and being direct and forceful about what you want is very often difficult for you. Though you may have a great deal of energy and drive, you lack confidence or simply the desire to put yourself and your interests first. Positively you can be very unselfish, working more on behalf of others rather than for yourself.

You deny your own desires and needs too much, however, and you are likely to secretly become very angry, which will sabotage your finest efforts.

Mars Conjunct Saturn:
You are very serious about reaching your goals and feel that keeping your nose to the grindstone is the only way to do it. Hard work, persistent effort, and concentration upon a single objective are the ways you achieve your aims in life. You exercise great self-control, even self-denial, in order to accomplish what you desire. You meet obstacles stoically and will struggle patiently through difficult circumstances. You feel that you must rely on yourself alone, that it's all on your shoulders, and you can be a harsh disciplinarian, expecting far too much from yourself and others. Often you hold yourself back, doubting your own power and ability. You may feel that you meet great resistance whenever you try to assert yourself or take initiative, and that is very frustrating to you. However, you have the power of endurance and a dogged determination to overcome all obstacles.

Venus Opposition MC:
Your desire for a beautiful home, a comfortable, pleasing lifestyle, and time to relax and enjoy yourself may well be the motivation for going out into the world and trying to achieve outward success. You may seesaw at times between your professional drives and desire for status, and the appeal of a rich personal life and home comforts.

Saturn Square MC:
You persevere through numerous obstacles, frustrations, delays, and setbacks in order to attain your ambitions in life. Sometimes it may feel as if you're pushing a boulder uphill. Try to avoid bitterness or comparing your lot to others', as these could weaken your resolve.

Pluto Square MC:
In some ways you may feel that you have little choice about your role in society. You're compelled either by unusual outer circumstances or by an inner drive, to bring things which may be dark, difficult, or taboo, into public awareness. You delve into the hidden side of life, things which may have been purposefully concealed or repressed, and bring these things to light. You could come into direct conflict with the authorities or powers-that-be as a result. You're apt to have extraordinary ambitions, and could become overly zealous and fanatical also.

Section 7: Growth and Expansion: Areas That You Enjoy

Jupiter in Scorpio:
Your strength lies in your unwillingness to settle for superficiality or shallowness in any area of your life. You are unafraid of going to extremes and experiencing the depths. The mysterious and the unknown are very attractive to you. Your intuitive understanding of others' inner drives and motivations is highly developed also.

Jupiter in 1st house:
You have an optimistic outlook on life and to others you appear jovial, confident, and expansive. You do what you can to be encouraging and helpful to other people, and your generosity and lack of pettiness makes you very well-liked.

Because you see yourself as a lucky person, you may feel that you can "get away with anything", without negative consequences. You tend to go to excess and have little sense of moderation (or even caution, at times).

Jupiter Conjunct Mars/Uranus
A certain element of luck seems to surround you and you could be lucky in some unusual endeavors. You have the correct grasp of situations that present themselves and instinctively know the right time for action.

Section 8: Areas That Challenge You Or Are Difficult For You

Saturn in Libra:
You take your personal relationships so seriously that they may seem more like work, constant effort, and compromise, rather than a free and enjoyable sharing. You may feel that relationships in general require more of you than they are worth, and you enter into any close relationship cautiously and conscientiously. You also fear entrapment in close relationships.

Saturn in 12th house:
You may have nebulous but ever-present guilts and fears that are difficult to pinpoint or eradicate. It's as if you don't trust Life itself, and are always seeking ways to defend yourself from its dangers and its unknowns. You must learn to overcome your ingrained habit of discouragement and anxiety, and to see the world more as a friendly place than as a treacherous one.

Saturn Conjunct Pluto:
You are suspicious of groups, crowds, and social organizations. You are quick to notice social games and insincerities, and you avoid the limelight and glamour. You are direct and to the point in speech and manner, stubborn and inflexible, and often unwilling to communicate your innermost feelings and thoughts.

Saturn Opposition Venus/N. Node
Around others you are somewhat humble and shy and prefer to be by yourself. You tend to limit your contact with others and associate only with like-minded people. You are inclined to be cool and reserved even toward those you love.

Saturn Opposition Venus/MC
You are quite cool and reserved in matters of love and tend to hold back your inclination for love. Somewhat inhibited in regard to relationships, you are inclined to feel that you are better off staying by yourself.

Saturn Conjunct Mars/Pluto
You are not afraid of hard work and leave no stone unturned in the pursuit of you objectives. You have a strong desire to overcome any difficulties or obstacles in your way and will do this at all cost, even if it means having to use force.

Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which you instinctively and habitually revert to when under stress - a mostly unconscious process and one which you are apt to overdo because it is so familiar and thus easy for you. The direction you need to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.

N. Node in Cancer:
When under stress you are apt to close down the flow of your emotions, ignoring your needs and feelings in order to do what you perceive as your duty or simply what the practical realities of the situation require. This can lead to a certain rigidity and hardness. If overdone, self-control, self-discipline, or an exaggerated concern over what society, family or others expect of you makes life more a burden than an adventure.

Developing tenderness, caring, feeling, and the feminine, nurturing aspects of yourself is an important step in your unfolding. You need to learn how to nourish and lovingly attend to both yourself and others. Letting yourself be taken care of sometimes is okay!

N. Node in 9th house:
The arena you are most likely to wrestle with these issues is in developing a personal vision or philosophy of life, whether this be through religious or philosophical studies, a broadening education, or visiting and drawing upon the wisdom in distant lands or cultures. Cultivate the qualities described above in this endeavor. Long distance communication and involvement with foreigners is likely to be significant to you.

The specific habits which are likely to hold you back, or which you are prone to overdo, especially during stressful periods, include:

N. Node Opposition Venus:
Being self-indulgent, relying on the generosity or affection of others too much, laziness, making personal love relationships and social life more important than anything else in your life, pursuing superficial pleasures.

Section 9: Originality and Imagination Areas Where You Are Creative, Unique, Unstable, or Compulsive

Uranus in 1st house:
You are an unconventional and innovative person, and you are seen as a rebel, reformer, or highly unusual in your manners, appearance, or attitudes. You enjoy being unpredictable, and you do not conform to the standards that other people have set. Above all, you are an individual, and you do what you please regardless of customs and norms. Your environment and life circumstances may change frequently and abruptly.

Neptune in 2nd house:
You may have a great deal of confusion over money, financial matters, and ownership. Perhaps these things mean very little to you. Or possibly you simply don't know how to deal with them in a realistic, effective way.

Also, you may make your living through artistic, musical, or highly imaginative endeavors.

Pluto in 12th house:
You have a deep interest in secrets, the underworld or unconscious, and anything hidden and mysterious. Psychoanalysis, investigating your dreams, and other methods of uncovering secrets are very interesting to you. You may be exceptionally perceptive intuitively or psychically. Your emotions and subconscious energies are complex, and periodic transformations and personal crises are sprinkled liberally throughout your lifetime.

Uranus Conjunct Jupiter/Neptune
Your are interested in what your rational mind can tell you, but also want to understand the subtler spiritual truths. Being very imaginative, you may suddenly come down to earth after recognizing the truth of a difficult situation.

Neptune Conjunct Sun/Jupiter
Your mood tends to vary and you may feel psychologically or physically fatigued at times. A sense of weakness makes it hard for you to get yourself going. But you are highly sensitive to the subtler spiritual truths and could be a very successful medium.

Neptune Conjunct Sun/Asc.
You are hyper-sensitive in dealing with others and have a tendency to be influenced or easily led by others. You could be easily deceived and misled and must learn not to take on other's problems.

Pluto Conjunct Mars/Asc.
Daring and adventurous, you rush in where others fear to tread and are willing to take on any challenge. You don't mind quarreling or arguing with people and have a strong desire to dominate your surroundings.

Section 10: Generational Influences: Your Age Group

In this chapter we will discuss characteristics and traits of your generation. Of course, you may not share all of the characteristics of your generation, but you are greatly affected by the tone that is set by your generation.

The first topic is "The Subconscious and Emotional Drive of Your Age Group". In this section we will describe a deeply felt urge, even compulsion, of your age group. This deeply felt drive comes to the surface with great force and power, and consequently leaves in its wake considerable upheaval and change. The second topic is "The Ideals and Illusions of Your Age Group", that describes the dreams, fantasies, and spiritual aspirations of your age group. The third and last topic is "What is New and Different in Your Age Group", which describes areas in which your age group tends to be innovative, inventive, unusual, and also where it may be unstable and unreliable.

The characteristics described below may affect a group of people for anywhere from a few years to about 30 years. There are one or more different astrological factors described in each of the three sections below.

The Subconscious and Emotional Drive of Your Age Group

Pluto in Libra:
You are part of a 12 year group of people who are deeply interested in personal relationships. Your age group has a deeply-rooted yearning to see people relating and communicating with each other effectively and harmoniously. There is little egotism and a willingness to hear the other person's side of the story and a readiness to compromise and arbitrate different points of view. In fact, the need for harmonious, peaceful relationships is so strong that there is a tendency to overlook real differences and to focus only on the similarities in an attempt to bring different parties into harmony with each other.

Interest in psychology and sociology is high in your age group. There is a tremendous heightening of awareness of social skills. Your age group will experiment with different marriage styles, family relationships, and even business relationships in an attempt to bring fair treatment and effective communication between people. Interest and appreciation for other cultures is also strong, and your age group will work hard to preserve and support the cultural heritage of all ethnic groups.

Your strong yearning for equitable and harmonious relationships is also reflected in major advancements in trade agreements, arms control, and international cooperation that are designed and implemented by your generation. These agreements and policies foster a much safer and more cooperative environment for all, although there is also a tendency for greedy individuals to take advantage of the conciliatory atmosphere and twist situations to their own ends.

In short, you are part of a generation of individuals who are deeply interested in other people; you are a humanistic and humanitarian group. You will struggle and experiment with personal relationships, and forge new models for how people can relate as friends, family members, and members of nations as well.

The Ideals and Illusions of Your Age Group

Neptune in Sagittarius:
You are part of a 14 year group of people that are extremely idealistic and farsighted in their dreams. Your age group is very liberal and expansive in outlook, and consequently churches become much more flexible and more eclectic in their approach during your life time. Religions that do not adapt to the broad-minded attitude of your age group simply are unable to attract very much interest and involvement from you.

A great deal of metaphysical musing and speculation is evident in your age group, and there is a very strong interest in all manner of psychic phenomena, UFO's, prophecy, etc. This interest will open many new doors and insights, but will also often lead to a great deal of fantasizing and speculation that is taken more seriously than it should be.

Neptune Sextile Pluto:
The entire generation to which you belong has tremendous opportunities for spiritual rebirth and awakening. This will not be forced upon you or precipitated by unavoidable events, rather it comes from an inner yearning and a natural propensity to seek the depths.

What is New and Different in Your Age Group

Uranus in Sagittarius:
You are part of a 7 year group of people who are extremely enterprising and forward-looking. You are optimists and explorers. Your age group shoots for the stars, figuratively and literally. Space exploration takes on new dimensions as your age group pushes fervently to the next frontier. There is a buoyant and youthful optimism and enthusiasm in your group, and you have your share of great discoveries as well as pipe dreams and disillusionment. The discoveries and contributions, however, are many, and more than compensate for the failures.

lol

I was playing with filters on my face. This is the mirror image one. It's how I would look if my face was perfectly symmetrical LOL .. Kind of weird but fascinating at the same time.

Yes, I'm very bored..

Fave new makeup heheh

Here we have Napoleon auto pilot pre-foundation primer. Costs about $45 but it's so worth it. Dunno how I lived without it hehe. You put it on after your moisturizer and it makes your skin so soft and smooth, then when you apply your foundation, it goes on perfectly every time.

Then we have jemma glisten .. It's not quite a lipstick, not quite a lip gloss. I have the shade called Venus. It paints on with a little brush and has a subtle shimmer which makes ur lips look sexy .. Makes me want to kiss myself in the mirror after I put it on hahaha.

Then L'Oreal Volume Shocking mascara. You put on the white bottom coat which makes ur lashes look longer. The black top coat you apply with a little comb and it makes ur lashes FAT as hehe.

If only..

.. i could voice the thoughts that run through my head.
.. you didnt dissappoint me so many times.
.. it didnt still hurt and make me cry.
.. i could tell him what i want to do to him. ;)
.. i never met you.
.. i did well in school.
.. you never left.
.. i had bigger boobs and a smaller ass LOL.
.. you could make time for me.
.. you never trusted them.
.. it was you and me against the world like it used to be.
.. love at first sight was real.
.. the world was made of Cadbury.
.. people would listen to what i have to say.
.. things didnt always have such bad timing.
.. i said yes instead of no.
.. we could be happy 100% of the time.

i could go on for hours with this hehe

bored .. quiz thingy

You will have a Content love. Not boring, but without fights and problems. You will just... be in love. Simple as that. As a person, you're not the one who laughs highest or most often, nor the one in the dark corner crying. You are the one who sits watching everyone else, often with a little smile playing on your lips. To you, life is good and you will get what you wish for. You will fall for someone who is himself, and lets you be you.

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Momo's

So much for my good start to the week =\ .. I got abused and screamed at at work today .. This old fart, like his about 60, and u know how old ppl always think they're right and get cranky when u tell them they're not .. Yea well he works the afternoon shift and came in today and someone was sitting in the seat he was sitting in yesterday so he cracked it hard .. Came up to me and starts blabbing on about how someone is in his seat (which there is no such thing, we hot seat, the agents never sit in the same seat every day) and that its just not good enough and that I'm ridiculous cos I cant keep his seat free and the whole job is just stoopid and his going to leave .. So i asked him if he had asked a manager to assist him and he yelled at me that he hadn't n he doesn't see why he should, so I got up and got one of the managers to help him out who then took him to HR as he smelled like alcohol .. And he is no longer employed with us, thank god, dunno if he got fired or quit, don't really care

so that set me off for a shitty afternoon, then I fkn had to stay back 40 minutes cos there was an escalated call .. That's 1hr overtime this week and its only Tuesday .. Then I bought prawns from coles cos I was craving and when I got home I put too much cocktail sauce on it so it was too tangy >.<

BAH! i need a hug =[

3 more things ..

that don't suck about this week (and this week is only 2 days old hehe):

• I moved my cross trainer downstairs so now I can exercise in the mornings before work.
• I finally got to go to the motorshow on the last day, and I want a Jaguar ^_^ (and Thi wants chips hehe)
• I met JT for the first time .. ooh watta cutie hehe =P except he kept poking me for some reason -.-

Let's hope the rest of the week is as surprising, in a good way of course :D

3 things

that SUCK about last week

• I only got to work out once, my sister is unemployed ATM and I'm doing 1015-1900 shifts at work, so I cant exercise in the morning cos she's asleep, and by the time I get home there's no motivation cos its so late and I'm hungry and there's good stuff on TV and people online to chat to >.<
• I got stood up in the worst way yesterday, and yes I'm fkn pissed off about it and there better be a fkn good reason
• I'm sick =[ I got a stoopid cold and now my nose is all stuffy and I spent last night tossing and turning trying to breath

sexy?

went for a haircut and colour today .. it's the same red it was when i first dyed it in sydney, and the cut just has a few more layers chopped into it .. my eyes kinda look green in these pics hehe, but then they change between green to grey to blue .. i dunno but i think i look better with my glasses on hehe, maybe cos its wat im used to seeing every day ^_^

help?

tell me .. how can a girl tell a guy she wants to sleep with him, no strings attached, without coming across as a slut?

so hard ..

Hurting

I think I really attract the wrong type of person .. 2 people I stupidly thought could or would never want to hurt me have done so recently .. Maybe I should just expect everyone to do so, but how could I handle the closest people to me making me cry? I don even want to think about it ..

these 2 people I have known for years, some of my longest friends and people I thought I could trust .. They don't know each other, and the things they have done are nothing alike .. However both have cut deep

one, I have bitched about before in my other blog . And have now decided he is one of those people you don't really want to bother with .. He pretty much uses me at his convenience and has proved I only mean something too him when he wants something from me

the other, I stupidly gave way too many second chances to .. Spent too many nights in tears over, gave too much and got nothing in return .. I cut the friendship off recently, and he let it go without fighting like he didn't give a shit whether I want to talk to him or not

maybe I need to take a good look at the people I associate with, maybe its time to really cut off the ones who are just going to cause heartache and problems later down the track .. But how can you relay know? The two I have mentioned today were some of the last people I would have expected this from .. And the ones I would have turned out to be the truest of friends .. Maybe I just need to stick to the people I know, but then wat happens if they turn out to be the wrong people and I end up with no one? .. Relationships are just too hard -.-

on another note, u know when u wake up too early to get up and you lie there kind of half asleep and in la la dream land .. I had some weird sex dream about a guy at work, and then when I was walking from the carpark to work this morning I ran into that particular person and I was blushing and he probably thinks I'm a dork now hahaha

DIE!!

o .. m .. f .. g!!!!!

people at work FUCKING PISS ME OFF .. they are like primary school children .. theres this one girl, the one i whinged about yesterday, today, she was off the fones as she does floor support, which is like helping agens out with their questions and stuff .. she just sat with her little bum buddy friend and chatted for about 3 hours, i had to get her manager to take her into the ops manager to have a 'talking to' .. then tonite they are moving seats, they are lukcy that atm they are able to sit in the same seat every day, this will change once we employ more people in a month or so .. so anyway a group of the agents have had specific training, so they are going to sit together, and the rest have to sit in their team groups .. so the last 10 minutes of the day were spent whinging and fiting over who they were going to sit next to .. and the terrible 2some are sitting rite near my desk GRRR

AND THEN i had to stay back for a half an hour extra because this OLD FUCK that works for us has ISSUES listening to floor support so he gets STUCK ON A FUCKING CALL FOR HALF A FUCKING HOUR!!!

ARRRRRGGGHHH . so now i cant even do my exercise cos its too fucking late .. and mum didnt cook anything so i have nothing to eat FUCK FUCK FUCK

** sorry for the excessive use of swear words .. im a little angry at the moment *sheepish grin*

woah im so impressed with myself .. i just added a hit counter to my blog and i dont know anything about html coding hehe ^_^

Happy ..

Valentines day ^_^ hope you all received something special, whether it be the most expensive gift or a simple I love you from a friend

now enuf of that .. I've decided I hate people, females in particular lol .. There's this girl at work who is so loud and full of herself .. She's rude to the customers and just logs off the phones and walks away whenever she feels like it, or whenever her frends have their breaks .. She's just GRR lol I dunno wat words to use .. Ok so maybe I don't hate people .. Just her and a couple of others at work.

I was listening to a song today usher - you don't have to call .. 'you don have to call, its ok girl, cos imma be allrite tonite' .. Made me think of that guy who chat me up at bubble on my bday party w/end .. I meant it when I said it was just a random kiss at a club, however its kind of, I dunno, it kind of hurts that I haven't heard from him since I msg'd him on friendster .. Its like he saw my fotos and thought 'wtf have I got myself into' .. I didn't pass the daylight test -.- *boo hoo*

schwat?

broken resolution

ok so i know just a week ago i said no more drugs this year .. but with winda offering to shout me to bubble and nothing else to do, how could i say no? hehe *hides*

i wasnt gonna go, really i wasnt, i said no and no and no .. then i gave in hehe, got to wanda's house about 1100 and got attacked by her puppy as usual .. then wanda's frend (who ive met before but i cant remember >.<) came to pick us up and after doing some laps to find parking we got to bubble about 1-ish and the line was wayy long .. wanda chat up some guy in the line cos he was lining up by himself and was lonely lol .. we got in about 230 -.- lucky we were on freelist so it was only $5 entry .. got an orange butterfly which was mad .. best peak ive had in ages ^_^ .. and had 2 halves of some other random pills through the night

saw so many ppl i havent seen for ages .. will (so so cute) it was his bday and omg he always gives me the best hugs ever ^_^ , saw kris and lammyz, jason, the urk boys and steph, paulo n myngoc, thai and TRAN!! i miss her so muchies

went back to winda's to recover .. she made me drink so i was peaking scattered n drunk at the same time and my eyes were like O.o .. we went to her next door neighbours for a few hrs so she could choof, they're a young couple with 2 kids, the older is a 3yo girl and omg can she talk lol .. then we went back to winda's to get some sleep, she's like hang on im gonna pee then we can jump in bed and she ended up taking 1 hour to piss!!! when we finally ko'd she was snoring and i was dreaming about work hehe

left her house about 430 and when i went outside there was a cop car in the street n for a sec i was like 'wat if they jump out n wanna breath test me?' LOL .. but yes, got home with no issues, although i hate driving behind 4wd's and vans, i cant see the road in front of them so i dunno wats going on .. n they just seem to be everywhere on the roads, cant get away from them

new playstation game

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!

Mark "X" by the things you have done –

X : yes * : kind of...

(X) smoked a cigarette

( ) smoked a cigar

(X) made out with a member of the same sex

( ) crashed a friend's car

( ) stolen a car

(X) shoplifted

(X) been fired

( ) been in a fist fight

( ) snuck out of my parent's house

(X) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back

( ) been arrested

(X) made out with a stranger

( ) gone on a blind date

(X) lied to a friend

( ) had a crush on a teacher

(X) skipped school

( ) seen someone die

( ) been to Canada

( ) been to Mexico

(X) been on a plane

(X) thrown up in a bar .. does salt count as a bar? hehe

( ) purposely set a part of myself on fire

(X) eaten Sushi

( ) been in an abusive relationship

(X) taken painkillers

(X) love someone or miss someone right now .. or want somone rite now?

(X) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by

( ) made a snow angel

( ) Had a tea party

(X) flown a kite

(X) built a sand castle

(X) gone puddle jumping

(X) played dress up

(X) gone sledding

(X) cheated while playing a game

(X) been lonely

( ) fallen asleep at work/school

( ) used a fake id

(X) watched the sun set

( ) felt an earthquake

( ) touched a snake

(X) slept beneath the stars in a tent

(X) been tickled

( ) been robbed

(X) been misunderstood

(X) pet a reindeer/goat

(X) won a contest

(X) ran a red light .. ask sov about that one hehehe

( ) been suspended from school

(X) been in a car accident .. i wasnt the driver

( ) had braces

(*) felt like an outcast

( ) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night

(X) had deja vu

( ) danced in the moonlight

(X) hated the way you look

( ) witnessed a crime

(X) pole danced

(X) questioned your heart

(X) been obsessed with post-it notes

(X) squished barefoot through the mud

(X) been lost

( ) been to the opposite side of the country

(X) swam in the ocean

(X) felt like dying

(X) cried yourself to sleep

(X) played cops and robbers

(X) recently coloured with crayons/colored pencils/markers

( ) sung karaoke

(X) paid for a meal with only coins

(X) done something you told yourself you wouldn't

( ) made prank phone calls

(X) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose

( ) caught a snowflake on your tongue

(X) danced in the rain

( ) written a letter to Santa Claus

( ) been kissed under a mistletoe

(*) watched the sun set with someone you care about .. we watched the sun rise

(X) blown bubbles

( ) made a bonfire on the beach

( ) crashed a party

(X) gone rollerskating blading

(*) had a wish come true

( ) humped a monkey .. LOL not yet? hahahaha

( ) worn pearls

( ) jumped off a bridge

( ) screamed penis in class

(X) ate dog/cat food .. when i was little

(X) hugged a complete stranger

( ) kissed a mirror

(X) sang in the shower .. with the radio on

(X) had a dream that you married someone

( ) glued your hand to something or someone

( ) got your tongue stuck to an icey flag pole

(X) Smoked Pot .. yucky

(X) Done other drugs

( ) kissed a fish

( ) been a cheerleader

(X) sat on a roof top

(X) screamed at the top of your lungs .. its not very loud tho

( ) done a one-handed cartwheel

(X) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours

(X) stayed up all night

( ) didn't take a shower for a week

( ) pick and ate an apple right off the tree

(X) climbed a tree

( ) had a tree house

(X) are scared to watch scary movies alone
(X) believe in ghosts

( ) have more then 30 pairs of shoes about

( ) worn a really ugly outfit just to see what others say

( ) gone streaking

(X) been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on

( ) broken a bone

(X) been easily amused

(X) caught a fish then ate it

( ) made porn

(X) caught a butterfly

(X) laughed so hard you cried

( ) cried so hard you laughed

(X) had sex .. not for a long time >.<

( ) mooned/flashed someone

( ) had someone moon/flash you

(X) cheated on a test

( ) made out in the rain

( ) have a Britney Spears CD

(X) forgotten someone's name .. all the time hehe

(X) slept naked

(X) slept naked WITH someone

( ) French braided someones hair

(X) gone skinny dipping in a pool

(X) been kicked out of your house or threatened to leave

( ) accidentally shown up to the wrong house

some good advice ..?

As we grow up we learn

• That even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down, probably will.
• You will have your heart broken, probably more than once, and it's harder every time.
• You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken.
• You'll fight with your best friend.
• You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.
• You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love.

So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt. Because every sixty seconds you spend upset, is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

stuck

Today my manager asked me to think about where I see myself going and wat I want to do with my career .. When I gave her a blank look she told me to think on it and let her know .. So I thought about it while I was working, when I was driving home, when I was doing the dishes and eating cake, and I have come to no conclusion .. I think I'm stuck, not just at work but my whole life has become stale and predictable .. I wake up, have a shower, get dressed, have brekkie, drive to work along the same route (I've never been late), park in the same spot as long as no one else has parked there, get a coffee, work my 9 hours, drive home, work out if I can be bothered, eat dinner and chat to the same ppl on the net (not that there's anything wrong with that, I like the ppl I chat to =P) .. Weekends I try and sleep in, turn the comp on as soon as I wake up and either spend the day on the net or watching tv downstairs .. When I do go out its either with Judy to eat and watch movies, or with winda to bubble .. And every week, no matter if its January or august will consist of the same routine

ok so I understand work is a routine, and you do it till you retire, that's a no brainer (unless I marry a rich man hehe) .. And I still love my job, I have fun at work and I'm happy .. But where do I want to go from here? I really have no idea .. I wouldn't mind learning how to do schedules, but we've just hired a scheduling analyst to do all that, so there's no need for me there. I wouldn't mind doing payroll if we paid every week, but as we don't, there's just not enough work there to keep me occupied. I don't want to be a manager of the agents, nor do I want my manager's job. I don't want to be a trainer, I don't have the skills or personality for that. I definitely don't want to be the center manager hehe .. So where do I go? wat development do I have available to me? .. I don't want my career planned out in front of me, that's not how I work. But I don't like the idea of just floating around being everyone's scapegoat much either..

When I get home from work I'm tired, its too hard to go out after work .. weekends most of my friends are seeing their bf/gf's and I don't want to be a 3rd wheel .. I cant go clubbing every week, my body cant handle it .. I don't want to mix work friends with outside friends too much, its happened once and its nothing but trouble .. I cbf making new friends, I'm shy and quiet and find it hard to open up to people, so new friends take a lot of time .. If I ask ppl to come out and do something different they always have something else to do, and if they say yes, a reason to cancel inevitably pops up ..

I'm stuck in a big rut, which I don't know how to fix .. And I'm not even an old married woman with 5 kids yet hehe

hello

hrm .. new blog (no thi i didnt copy u, ur not that special hehe jks, i followed this link from google =P) .. i think my msn space has too many readers .. too much opportunity to get into trouble hehe

work is really boring .. now that im back im over at the tesltra side of the building, and theres not much work to do yet as we only have 49 agents .. although im bored, im a bit annoyed that my manager is making me do one day a week at the ea side cos she told me i would be a telstra cara .. i also have to do 2 saturdays in a row 'to make it fair' .. fk that

OMG LOOOOOOL im watching this show on channel 9 called shopping for love which is a REAL bad dating show were they have the person they want to set up, and 2 people go through this person's house to get an idea of who they are. then the 2 ppl go shopping at chadstone to buy the person getting set up 3 different things, the person getting set up then chooses who they wana go on a date with after seeing what's been bought for them .. aaanyway, tonite theres this gay guy getting set up and and one of the guys doing the shopping is a guy i work with HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

ok so i knew he was gay, but man .. he has to stoop this low for a date? LOOL!!! they even showed him tryng on undies on the outside of his pants .. hahaha ah i have to mention it at work tomoro LOL .. and did he get the date in the end? .. he did!!!! hahaha nice one now i have to ask him if theyre dating lol